Wait...I'm how old?!

     When the guidance counselors came to talk to us last class, it seemed reality finally hit me- or, more like grabbed me by the collar, stole my lunch money and stood above me as it taunted me and giggled. I'm a senior. A senior. I need to submit college applications this semester. Where did the time go?! I'm not old enough for that! I'm no where near ready to face that independence and responsibility! I still jam to the same boy bands I did when I was five years old! I still watch Pokemon reruns(original only please)! I still ask strangers if I can pet their dog when I'm out walking(....dog was my first word, okay? I love them). I'm still just a little girl.  So how do people expect me to go to college, to be a self-sustaining adult? What if I fail and become a hobo? (actually I always kind of wanted to be a carnie so I can fall back on that plan instead of being a hobo I suppose....)

I haven't a clue what I want to do with my life- and even less on how I would go about accomplishing it if I did know. My life is stressful enough trying to deal with school- have to get my creative writing journal pages done, have to study for that anatomy test, have to present that project tomorrow(hope people don't notice that I break out in hives when I present things) and don't forget the English outside reading!- and my personal life( What do I get my friend for her birthday? It's Wednesday...am I staying at my Grandfather's, Mom's, Dad's or Jillian's house tonight?! Why don't I study Korean to understand what these k-pop videos are saying?! Why am I worrying about korean when I have enough trouble with my first language?! When am I going to be able to drive a car without pretty much hyperventilating? I need to work on getting a real job instead of working for my Mother-not my best idea).

  All in all, it's within the realm of possibility that I'm..freaking out. Where is Peter Pan when I need him? TAKE ME TO NEVERLAND!


Unrelated Distraction to Stop Mental Breakdown:
I have very little comprehension  as to what this music video is saying(and since it lacks a video plot that doesn't help), but the english in it is "Tell the DJ turn it up, and dance a little more," " ....Never end, (yeogin="here in") NEVERLAND," and "...stay forever young," so I keep listening to it. I feel like it applies. I want to have fun and never grow up ♥. Plus I like this band...they're interesting.

    

A Brief Reminder, Stay Smart!

   
I dont really expect this to count as my post this week, but I still felt this video needed to be shared!

     Today in class Mr. Mullins commented on a few common mistakes he saw in the summer reading journals, such as the misspelling of  "definatly" definitely.  I must admit, I make this mistake often. For some reason I want to spell it with a root of "define" instead of "finite", which once I think about it, clearly makes no sense so I don't know why I keep doing it... Whatever the reason, it is one of the many stupid mistakes I am guilty of commonly committing. It reminded me of this video I saw a year or so back that pointed out a few other stupid mistakes I also found myself partaking in. So, to help anyone out there who actually reads this, here is a video by the Vlogbrothers -Hank Green in this one- correcting a few common verbal or written  screw-ups.

Oh Summer Reading, How I'm Glad You're Over.

     So school is here, and after 3 B-days worth of English class, I can say with great security that I'm glad we're done working with the summer reading books. We've turned in our reading journals, written our essays and ta-da, moving on! It's not that I didn't enjoy the summer reading books- well actually...that's a lie. I wasn't particularly fond of them. But not because they weren't good books. Actually I found them to be quite entertaining and well written- over all at least. I'm not quite sure what I didn't enjoy about them.
      Perhaps it was how unexpectedly sexual American Gods turned out to be. For a school-assigned book, I was caught completely off guard by some of the scenes in this story. That and the main character was...dull. I mean, your name is Shadow and you're (SPOILER ALERT) the son of a god, your wife is currently a zombie, your new best friend is a lesbian, you try to get talking ravens to shout "Nevermore!"(GO POE), you're fighting a war and you're recently released from jail. Yet your still boring. Must take skill my friend. Please, just once, feel something and react. As for Never Let Me Go...hmm... I found it too vague yet helplessly predictable for my personal taste. Hopefully our selections for outside reading this semester will prove more appealing to me.